I wanna thank you for being there all this while. For accompanying me through the nights. To listen to all my complaints, unhappiness and problems. You tend to overlook my flaws. But yet you're able to accept me as who i am. Its really nice of you. Thanks for spending all your precious time with me. The 1 1/2hours of just sitting down with a cup of coffee session is too short for me. But yet, its a great satisfactory to talk all i want. To listen to all your talks. To laugh at all your jokes. And to be serious when it comes to a serious talk. Im happy to have you by my side always. I treasure all the views, advices, and everysingle bit that you gave. Those moments were really priceless. And to have you is really a priceless gift that could be bought, sold nor forgotten.

You're really important to me. And you're one of the individual that i will always look out for throughout my life.

I get tired easily right now. I really am. The schooling time, travelling time, everything. Common test is just around the corner, Practical test is really waiting for me and soon i will be away for attachment. This is what that makes me so eager and wanting to look forward; Clinical Attachment. Next, about the modules. This is what im quite sicked of actually. Especially AAP. I just feel like crying during the prac class just now. Im really stressed. I will turn blank when it comes to biology. Hahaha. Chem students mah. Niways, thnx for ur concern during the lesson Fadhilah. So swit of u to text me during the lesson itself. Ily! Niways, i will try to get over the stress a.s.a.p. To my poly sweethearts, im sorry for being quiet at times in school. Thanks for your understanding, fee. I promise when ive get over all those things, i will be back as the fadhilah that you people know and we will hell rawk the school like nobody business. Ive also realised that right now, im back with my old habit. JIWANG! Haiyo. Ive been listening to all those jiwang songs again. And in school too. I just cant imagine that me and my fwens, did our project in school, with the jiwang songs on and we sang hell loud like as if we own a karaoke club. Hehs. And me together with fee, have been singing 'haruskah kita berpisah'. Even at MIC lab too. Sorry for being the starter au fee. It was fun though. Hhahahs.

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Now, all my misses:

1) I miss all my beloved sweethearts.

2) My loveydovey cousins.

3) My matrep. (You know who you are)

4) My hell lot smiles during the early of the April.

5) My workplace (Im so wanting to go work again. Hees. Hopefully dere is work this friday)

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And im currently texting my dear syahrul. Oh my, i miss that bro truckloads. Like finally, we get into contact once again.

He said: You dont rely on others, you dont go to them. U need to upgrade yourself. They'll come to you. Anyone, but dont forget, nothing is permanent. Crying over spilled milk, better move on. And please dont make others use you. The things you can do and the things you wish to do, are 2 different things. Only you know that better then anyone else. Be strong. Power is always necessary because conflicts exist. The weak will always cry over being powerless, when you hold that power, be conscious of it. Or else you will make others cry.

Gosh. His advice is so the powderful okeh! Thats one thing i like about him. So matured. Niways, thnx for the advice syahrul. I will always take note of that. Hope that we will get to meet again soon k. I gonna miss you. Study hard yeah!

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To my dearest _______, im really worried about you. Ever since you text me that night and telling me what happen, i knew something isnt right.U choose not to mention anything about it. Its ok. I understand. But at least, please do reply my msgs. Ive been waiting for your msg every minute. I know that it is really bothering you. But i just dont have the right picture towards it. I really hope that you could pick up that phone of yours and text me a.s.a.p. The best if you could give me a call. It will really be great if i could hear it from you. Im totally worried. Thats all i could say for the time being. If you need to talk about it, just beep me and i will be there for you.

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The past, past, past but yet new pictures..

Hello earthlinks!!! =))

Ive not been blogging for days. ;-)

Here are all the updates.

A fine schooling week. And that is week4 already. One month have past. Really fast. And my clique bond really well like as if we know each other for like one year already. We have always been laughing our ass of. And ive been suffering from stomach cramps more often. I guess ive been participating actively in the laughing excercise. Hehs. Great for health. We also did camwhored using fadhilah's bike okeh. Super kewl! Now im really excited to get a lisence. Green light from dad already. Yay! And not to forget, this best part, during one of the day, i manage to come out with a blady good reason just to avoid that particular someone. Its a great achievement okeh! =) Sorry naufal, im just too stubborn luhhh. ;-) And im really sicked of being squeezed and followed. Hehs.

And, coincidently, met my the other half, at the mrt track on friday. Thus, we manage to go to school together. Ily! =DD

Morning - Met my boboy. =) Im so happy that at last i could see his smile. And bro, im still counting for the day to come. 26 september. I miss u already luhh. Haiyo. We will meet around soon kay.

Afternoon - Went to my favourite place, MUSTAFA. Not because of the location ok. puhlease. Dont get me wrong. But i just love to shop there. hehehs. And of course must makan at Komala. My fav, Poori.

Evening - Headed to aunt's crib. Met my buchuk. He's so cute ok. Love him. Kak, thnx for loaning me storybooks. And sorry for leaving early, got date uhh. (u know i know) Hehehes.

Late evening - Ok. Ive got a lot of things to mention here. Met darlings fya and naufal. Firstly, i met fya at the bus stop somewhat near my house. Gosh, can see how xcited she is when she met me at the bus stop. She is so really adorable with her scarf on. Then of course, in the bus, we hav tons of things to share. All about our own poly life -the school, fwens and ....... And finally we reach ehub. Waited for naufal but den show started already. In the end we decided not to catch any movie. We had a drink at mcCafe. Then, we created our own movie at Pasir Ris Park. This part was dam fun. For once, me and fya was behaving like i dont know, maybe morons who followed naufal blindly and in the end, we ended having a dark night walking session. Kewl. But tired luhh. And of course, its fun. Adventure mah. P/s Naufal, bring me to that place one fine morning can. I know it will only be beautiful if we walk there with the presence of the sun and not a moon. Back to the story, soon after the walk, decided to head home. Hop 17 to our place. We accompanied fya home (but apparently halfway only, she so stubboorn also, just like me) and then in the end, me and naufal lepak at alfiah restaurant. Miracle, we sat down and chat from head to tail till arnd 1am. How i wish my everyday life is like that. To have someone sitting beside me in which i can talk about all issues to that someone till late night. It will be really great! =) But not really possible luhh. Hehs. After all the talkingtalking, laughinglaughing, gossipinggossiping, he send me home. Den reached at doorstep, timed: 1.05am. Thnx for the day my darlings. Ily two.. And naufal, ive got your advised, but ive still judge him through the cover though. Im sorry. A ______ will always be a ______. Thats it. Niways, thnx for the listening ear. Hearts yar! ;-)

Meet Eleena to do the FON project. Then, rush home to study for psychology and sociology. Then after, drop dead on my bed at 2am. =))

And this is also part of what i wana blog actually.

It feels really great when you know that there are people who cares about you, who accept you as who you are, who protects you from all the dangers in life, and who loves you through it all. Im very fortunate. Reallly fortunate to have those people in my life. It is really a great gift from God that could never be bought by money. Its is really wonderful, when you can feel all their cares towards you.

To you people, thanks for your concerns all this while. To some, i might be quite new to you and to the rest, you have know me inside out for years.. Yet your care is so visible. You were always there to protect me. I know that you really cares. Ily.

Alright, thats about it, Week4.

Much love,

Fadhilah... ;-)

IT'S BEEN A DAMN TIRING WEEK.

Yet, i did learned a lot. Hehs.

And ive bought my nursing uniform. Yay! But still, the pants are just too big for me. teehee. Gotta do something with it. For now, i wont be uploading those pics that were taken this week and the ones from firdaus cam. No time luhh. I cant blog much either. [ tons of things are waiting for me in the Que =)) ]

The end of week 2. Tomorrow, back to school. Get to meet my clique once again. Its like a yay! Cant wait to mit the hot mama, cutie pie, roxy, punker, hot babe, ms hahahaha and the blur sotong. +++++ dilbara, and manymany more. Hehs. =)) So tmr, once again, we will start our daily routine, have picnic during lecture and to laugh our ass off. Hahas. =D

And i will be purchasing my nursing uniform tomorrow. I guess...

Alrite, i will end here. Gotta sleep early.

I wont blog this weekdays, of course. Tired okehh.

Dont miss me people!

If you do, just text or give me a call.

And i love all my darlings so much!!! =))

Bubbye! ;-)

Ever since school starts, i miss all this bunch of people.

My lovely cousins.

Gosh. God knows how GEREK this people are actually.

Sometimes we will be in a situation where its hard to make a decision. When you were given a number of choices to chose from. People will just come, begging for a chance or an opportunity from you. Its something that you really don't expect it to happen either. If only there is any opportunity for me to explain the real situation to you. I will. Hurting you is not an achievement in my life. Its like im killing my ownself. I hate to do that. Things will always seem to be wrong when our conversation starts. There must always be the tiny bit that will make you speak up the negative thoughts of yours. Ive never regard you as a bad person. Ive never done that before throughout the past years. No matter what those people out there said about you, im still right there in front of you. Smiling and welcoming you with an open heart. Remember this is what you did tell me before, 'ignore what the outside world gona talk about you as long as you know what you did is right'.. And this is what i want you to remember too my dear friend. I hate it to hear you repeating those negative sentences again and again. I had enough. Whether you are a good or a bad individual, i will still accept you as who you are. Maybe i will get pissed of a lil bit. But im sure that im still able to get over that feeling of mine. Whats more important is that i have to be there for you always as i know that there will be times that you will need me. Things will still be like the old times. When we both shared the laughters together. And when one of us cried, the other will cry too. Ive always been telling you. In my life, its not just about me sharing the joyful moments with my dear friends. But its also about me being there with you during those sad moments. Sitting beside you, consoling you and trying my best to feel your deepest sorrows. Just a simple note, as long as our friendship exist, we will always share all the ups and downs together. Be it with you or they. And i do hope that things between us will get better day by day.

All this while, things have been really great.
The PEOPLE, LECTURERS and the ENVIRONMENT of the poly life as well.

My clique are just a GREAT bunch of people
Fun to be with
Always being naughty
And will never stop cracking jokes
At times we will be the outspoken ones to the people out there. Hahs. =D

They are clique of the ROCKING PEOPLE in my poly life.
[ I wana get to know more ppl though. ;-) ]

Let those pics explain how wonderful poly life is...